The day is almost over

Well I wrapped up work an hour later than normal. It was a terrible afternoon but in the end, I think everything went okay. Mrs. Carter brought me over a beautiful dinner of catfish and potatoes. It was awesome. I never thought I would like catfish but I am finding it to be one of my favorite fish! 2 years ago I wouldn't touch fish. Now I crave it.

I didn't have a great day and I started to tell myself that it was the worst since we got here. But it actually wasn't. I quickly remembered harder times earlier and told myself to knock of the depression quickly setting in. I told myself to remember that I didn't get much sleep last night or the last few nights.

Those who know me know that I tend to be negative. Tonight I was feeling pretty negative till I talked to myself about it. I need to keep in mind all the positve, great things that have happened to me in my life recently, not just bad.

Great things to remember:

I do feel blessed about working at the park, it is a very difficult job for me, I get stressed out at the mistakes I make but I also feel that I am doing okay at it and I end up meeting the nicest people!! I think if I would relax a little bit (a lot), I would be better at it. I like working with Truda, too. She and I seem to get along pretty well.

I always remind myself what a gift I have floating in the harbor, too. Benevolence will be such a grand boat when she is finished. I cannot wait to see what we do with her the next few years. Some of our plans will have her cruising and even maybe racing again? :)

I am doing fantastic at getting fit. I am not starving myself or even depriving myself, just moderating. I get a lot of physical activity around the park too which helps a lot. I am feeling really good about my progress.

The bills are getting paid and paid on time.

And the greatest thing: Brett seems to be much happier here with the boat. He has finally been able to be in his element. I have never seen him so happy. Through all the nasty crap in his past, he has fought-fought well and come out winning in the end. I am so proud of my husband and all that he has accomplished this last couple years.

Good night and sweet dreams. Think good thoughts.